iii honestly wish i could just be off with a day where i can be COMPLETELY FREE from work or anything that keeps me away from my room. BECAUSE SO MANY THINGS JUST KEEPS TRYING TO PULL ME DOWN! Oh Dad, i've lost so many things i've had in You. But even so, im not turning away at all. I'm gonna crawl my way back if i have to. Just as long as i get to have You.



Have Your way here,
keep me up, love cause i know i'll sink without You.

Oh my goodness. I have not blogged for a super jumbo long time. Been really really really busy. My sleeping pattern became oddly fixated. I sleep at the wrong time which is like in the afternoon which isn't really a good thing to do. As i'd become insomniac at night. Actually i'd sleep at times when i just feel like it. Not good. hahahaha. Well okay now, its okay. It's becoming normal again i think. :P I really thank God for being my strength throughout this whole month if not i would have gone insane. It's not even the middle month yet, but i'm already starting to feel the workload coming and coming and coming. Somehow it gives you that feeling, where you think you don't have much to do at all, when deep inside you know you actually do have a lot. More like you're trying to avoid it. Projects after projects, homeworks after homeworks, lots of activities being pressured on to us as this year is our last year and all. IT'S CRAZY! You know what the worse part was? EVERYTHING CAME IN ALL AT ONCE! It's not just this but also many many temptations and other disturbance that filled my head that gave me no space to think about anything else. But in my heart, i knew i was still grabbing on tightly to God.

I remember earlier this year. I had a morning prayer. I was desperately just seeking Him to prepare myself for later this year. Cause i kind of felt a little scared of what is gonna happen. And all, so i was just sitting down on my bed, flowing and flowing in the spirit. Till God gave me a vision, an angel appeared beside me..okay i got scared. HAHA, but he told me not to be afraid. So i just relaxed myself and all. And he also said that this year for me, i will be facing LOTS AND LOTS of consequences and again told me not to be afraid. But instead to lean on Him at all times. That echoed in my head for quite sometime. Lean on Him.. lean lean lean. I kind of thought about it the whole day. But i guess this made me feel a whole lot better. At least i know what i'm heading for and am gonna prepare for it. Not that i know exactly WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN but i have God to walk through it all. :)



okay, i have to head off now, got assignments to do. :(

times when we are faithless, He remains faithful.